Wednesday, April 20, 2005
wednesday
20/4/2005
bad bad day.
i was so tired when i got out of bed
for some reason
i woke up suddenly last night at around 3am
and couldn't sleep after that
maybe i was worried about the applications
worried about the written test this sunday
anyway
i was really tired
never felt so tired b4 since coming to ttsh
followed mei leng to the wards
she was so patient in explaining to me those neuro and cardio terms
i was really interested
but i could feel my attention span waning by the second
i couldn't focus on wat she was trying to tell me
i was momentarily awoken when i saw this old man called salim
a stroke patient
when we saw him
he was foaming at the mouth
slouched on the chair
murmurring to himself
and his right leg had been amputated
it was really heart-wrenching
it was worst to hear from mei leng that his chances of regaining full functions is near zero.
when we left
i heard him shout and moan
it was really sad
my decision to be a doctor has never felt more right.
i guess that incident really affected me when i got back to the pantry
maybe because i was also tired
i felt so listless and lethargic
jo asked me where i went
i said i was at the wards
i felt i didn even feel the energy to answer her
i was supposed to go for lunch with shunwei
but i didn even feel like eating
felt really bad
she had to eat her lunch somewhere else
cos i bought two kuehs and just wanted to sleep at the pantry
end of lunch
i felt really feverish after waking up from the nap
my face was really hot and i was shivering
i realised i couldn take it anymore
so told heidi and mei leng dat i had to go home
a weird thing happened to me on my way back
i felt a sudden urge to cut my hair
i got home and called my mum to tell her i wanted to cut my hair
got scolded instead
she ordered me to bed
haiz
still gotta take panadol
[Jay Rawks`]
at 12:27 AM
