Monday, May 30, 2005
HEYOS~!!!!
haha...i had a really wonderful day with lindzeee kueh yesterday!!!!!
oh my goodness...haha..dunno where to start from...
we met in the morning
haha...lindz like mee siam and i had lontong...haha...this sounds so pri sch...
and then we marched up to bugis from Concourse
haha...we had rotiboy Bugis junction...haha...already so full liao...
den we shopped around...
haha...
kept feeling that static charge thingy every time our hands brushed against each other...
haha...wonder what happened?!!!
we didn used to have this...
hahahah...
(((((+ +))))
hahaha...den we went to watch madagascar!!!!!!
goodnesss....the giraffe and zebra were soooooo cuttteeeeee!!!!
laughed like throughout the show...
ahahhaa
ok...i tink i m going nuts...
oh yes...saw the initial D trailer!!!!!!!!
the music was so cool!!!!!!
and of course...jay looked so shuai4 and hot!!!!!
haha...
ok...i tink i m really going nuts...
[Jay Rawks`]
at 4:34 PM
Saturday, May 28, 2005
i m really very happy today!!!!
=))))) (((((=
haven't felt so happy and excited in a really really long time ^^!
that feeling when both of us sat down to eat and talk was simply marvelous!!!
it was like going back to our jc days
i couldn't believe it happened...today
i still can't believe that lindz is back
after about 9 months of not seeing lindz...
during this time
it was only talking to her on msn
not seeing her
not hearing her
but now...everything is real again!!!
and the second happiest thing...
met my class today!!!!
(((((+ +)))))
it was indeed one of the most successful class outings we had...
i counted...18 people turned up!!!!
saw all the familiar faces...
so happyz!!!!
weishan
claire
cheryl
charmaine
yi xuan
alison
oiying
agnes
jizheng
tiong phew
edwin
kenny
weiping
albert
yongjian
li koon
and of course...
lindzee and i!
and met weiping for shopping in the afternoon...
haha...
shopped for perfume
had quite a lot of fun spraying those perfumes on our hands and smelling them
haha...
and also contacts...
both of us really need...
it was a really happy evening!!!!!
haha...seems like my vocab only got happy...
and yes!!!!
the sambal grilled fish was simply delicious!!!!
woohhooo~~!!!!
although i kept having to drink lots of water...
haha
and went to nydc to meet amanda
haha
she looked so cute!!!!!
dressed up like a waitress and serving all the food and drinks
but i tink we looked even funnier
imagine 18 of us
standing outside nydc
staring through the glass panels
and looking at amanda...
haha...
our class really does amazing stuff...
and lindz was so cute!!!!
she started feeling sleepy at around 10
hahaha
must be jet lag...
haha
goodness
really had a great evening...
hope every day is like this!!!
[Jay Rawks`]
at 9:29 AM
Friday, May 27, 2005
in this life
i live not for myself
i guess.
i live for Him
So i put my trust in Him
and follow which ever path He chooses for me.
[Jay Rawks`]
at 3:25 AM
Thursday, May 26, 2005
met albert today
it was really nice just sitting at the class bench
taking in the sights and sounds
students rushing for recess
people mugging at the class benches
guys playing ball
those banners screaming for attention at the central plaza
people sleeping at the class benches
the band practising
students walking slowly to the tutorial classes
and i thought i saw myself in every one of those instances
rushing to the canteen for recess with lindz
mugging notes and finishing tutorials in the morning
playing monkey bar with lindz, oiying, albert and weiping
putting up the banner for the concert
sleeping at the class bench in the morning
listening to the band play the national anthem
walking with lindz to A203
i felt a tinge of sadness all over again
i realised i miss those days
so badly
i told albert dat i would not want to return to those jc days
mugging was scary enough
but now
i tink i would want to return to those days
if i were given a chance
even with all that mugging
i want to relive those moments
[Jay Rawks`]
at 10:28 AM
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
i am listening to duan4 le2 de2 xuan2
it's really sad
that song is special
every time i listen to it
i would tink of the first half of last year
of the angel-mortal game
maybe we are really like wat others say
you3 yuan2 wu2 fen4
suddenly feel like crying
[Jay Rawks`]
at 10:33 PM
i was talking to mr lim over msn
i guess he really knows me well...
the following is our conversation...
me: mr lim, i got into medicine~!! Thank You for writing that letter of recommendation for me!
mr lim: Woah -- that's super! so -- is your family happy with things -- ?
me: haha...yeah...they are...i was actually quite surprised...
mr lim: so how -- are you going to be perpetually stressed in Med School or not? Must relak a bit now that you're IN ...
me: *so u could actually see THAT?* haha..yeah...i know...haiz...have i always been very stressed? *i tink that was a stupid qn*
mr lim: yeah -- you usually were super stressed -- or at least it seemed that way to me ...
I think it came from being a perfectionist. But I'm sure you'll have to learn to adapt to Med School accordingly ...
me: haiz...u correctly guessed it...i am a perfectionist..haiz
mr lim:I didn't GUESS it -- I've been your teacher for a while ...
me: haha...i know...how did u know? i mean...how could u tell?
mr lim: please -- don't get me started -- anyway -- what have YOU been up to
me: *wah...as if i have been up to some mischief these days*
mr lim sounded like he was interrogating me for some reason...haha...
[Jay Rawks`]
at 7:01 AM
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
was talking to oiying on the phone
discussing about the hku med interview questions( tys qns...)
oiying: found this qn on the website..."what is the difference between green paper and white paper?"
me: er...dunno...
oiying: colour lar
me: ... but this answer is good enough...dun go into "green symbolises XXX and white symbolises YYY"
oiying: another one..."how many medical graduates did we have last year?"
me: wat?!! if u say yes...they will defintely tink u r some chao mugger or bookworm who mugs yearbooks...say u dunno...
i kind of think that if i were to go for the hku interview, it's going to be much tougher
[Jay Rawks`]
at 8:30 AM
Sunday, May 22, 2005
oiying and i went out yesterday
haha...
we went on a date to spoil all dates
haha
quotable quote
finally talked to albert yesterday
wow
really missed him so much!!!!!
after "disappearing from the face of earth" for dunno how many weeks
he finally reappeared
but he's still the funny albert
congrats bert!!!!
u got into dentistry!!!
he says he always kena guard duty
cos he keeps losing his stuff
hahaha
goodness
he nv fails to make me laugh
talking to albert reminds me of likoon and kelvin
our pw group
we should "seriously" take a group photo together
prom photo wasn't good enough
no likoon
koon got into mech eng-his first choice
haven't talked to kelvin for a long time
hope he is doing well too
my goodness
i tink i really miss my class a lot
[Jay Rawks`]
at 7:15 PM
i am a fool
i am an idiot
i can't take it anymore
lindsay
i can't take it anymore
i can't wait for you to be back
[Jay Rawks`]
at 5:45 PM
Saturday, May 21, 2005
sometimes
i quite envy anny and ky
lovey dovey pair
even though they might feel the whole world is against them
they know they still have each other
in the romantic sense
and of course
i have seen break ups
that were sometimes as quick as how they got together
and i think of what i have been through
together?
i don't think so
we were never together
i used to console myself by saying that maybe he needs more time
but i guess that's just wallowing in self-pity
he probably never liked me
and he said all those...
i don't know...
just to please me?
so that if he changes his mind...he still has one spare tyre?
now i am scared
i don't dare to go into this kind of things anymore
but i don't want to keep waiting and miss the boat...
i don't want to be shadowed by that experience
though i know i am already in it
i am so confused
[Jay Rawks`]
at 4:35 AM
6 Days...
6- june 04...the only time we really spent time going out together...i miss those times lindz...
[Jay Rawks`]
at 1:56 AM
Friday, May 20, 2005
the results are out
i got into med =)
it was a real surprise man...really didn expect to get in...especially after being roasted alive by those profs...and den went on to be mocked at by dat neurologist from nni...
i must really thank my dear senior xinling!!!!!!
thank you so much!!!!
a big
thank you to ali, oiying and of course lindzeeee!!!!
[Jay Rawks`]
at 9:33 AM
7 DAYS
7-the number of letters in our names, weizhen and lindsay
[Jay Rawks`]
at 12:50 AM
Thursday, May 19, 2005
8 days...
8 - the month of last year...when lindzeee left...
[Jay Rawks`]
at 6:04 AM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
9 DAYS
9 -- September is the month of the year when lindzee celebrates her birthday
[Jay Rawks`]
at 6:11 AM
Friday, May 13, 2005
now it's down to less 14 days...less than two weeks!!!!
[Jay Rawks`]
at 7:40 PM
Thursday, May 12, 2005
i tasted rotiboy on tuesday
ahhhhhhhhhhh...it was simply delicious!!!!!!!
imagine sinking your teeth into this hot, soft, crispy crust
the fragrance that lingers in your mouth
haha...it was magnificent!!!
[Jay Rawks`]
at 9:13 PM
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
so i guess it's probably they don't want me around
this is not the first time
i am not part of their "gang"
i stick out like a sore thumb
[Jay Rawks`]
at 6:05 AM
Sunday, May 08, 2005
A Big
Thank You to those who donated your platelets!!!
i think i am a real big sua ku idiot
and u know why
because i found out that it's actually quite easy to get from outram mrt to sgh
and i tot it was some super duper inaccessible place
like what oiying used to say to me
"it's so user-friendly...if u dunno..u r really an idiot"
so i discovered that once u come out of the mrt
go up the escalator
scan the card
there is this huge sign that says Singapore General Hospital
but then again
thanks nigel
for giving me the directions
haha
i must really say u have a superb memory
u seem to know the exact details of the route
alright
u seem to know singapore better than i do
i better start mugging the street directory
actually i know i m not supposed to be blogging now
a bit like eating snake
but then there is seriously nth to do this morning
oh yes
there was sth to do
cutting pieces of splint
i was cutting them until my hand ached like crazy
i think i need hand ot
niwaes...the worst was i was so careless that i cut my leg with the penknife
never mind that there is now a hole in my pants
the worst thing is the pain
grrrrr
the result of being careless and blur
niwaes
at sgh
i found out from the nurses that quite a lot of my friends have actually gone to donate their platelets
really quite touched
it was so early in the morning
and i know almost all of them either had school or had to work
haiz...too bad my blood type is AB+
can't donate
haiz
i really hope that mr yong can get well soon
as i was walking around the ot dept today
i realised that a lot of the staff there actually resemble people i know
which is kind of uncanny in a sense
regina-she looks and behaves like mrs ng!!!! i realised she even smells like mrs ng(haha...sorry...this part about the smell is a bit gross)
nigel-he looks like u lindzee!!!!! i tink it's the eyes and the mouth...and the way u both smile!!!
betty-she looks like and sounds like mrs chan...haha..the chem lecturere in hc
sophie-she looks like this tv actress...whose name i can't remember off hand...hmmm...or maybe she has a universal face...
alright...so much for crapping today...i think i m going to eat my lunch now...
[Jay Rawks`]
at 9:41 PM
Saturday, May 07, 2005
my classmate's friend's father has been diagnosed with leukemia, and he is currently in a critical stage.so I am appealing on her behalf to those whose blood group is type A+ If you are keen on donating your blood platelets to him, please go down to the following place:SGH blk 7, lel 2, haemotology centre, rm 7, tell them you are doing screening for platelet donation for yong chou yun
Thank You
[Jay Rawks`]
at 8:23 AM
Thursday, May 05, 2005
heyos lindzeee!!!!!!! thanks dear +)) watever is done is done...nth i do now will be of any help...sighs...maybe some things in life are really fated...if i m not fated to be a doctor...so be it...i believe there are other paths for me to choose...oh yar...i think i affected oiying's interview...if not for me i tink they wouldn't have asked her about the therapists thing...
it feels like i haven't talked to u for a long time...but can u believe it?!!!!! it's this month~~~!!!!! haha...have u started packing? remember to bring back all your jay chou cds hor...haha...but even if u forget i still have them...hehe...oh yeah...oiying bought for me(actually not lar...it's just that i haven't returned the money to her...hehe...) the vcd for xun2 zhao3 zhou1 jie2 lun2...and the "best" thing is he appears only towards the end of the movie for a grand total of 5 minutes...haha...but i tink he really looked quite cool in it...and cute!!!!
i went for my japanese class yesterday evening...after having disappeared for two weeks...goodness...i was so flustered yesterday...couldn't understand what the teacher was saying for most of the time...so two weeks of lessons really meant quite a lot...the grammar structure for jap sentences is so different from the english one...haiz...had so much trouble memorising it...
take care lindzee!!!! hope we can meet online on day 20!!!!!!!
[Jay Rawks`]
at 10:37 PM
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
hehe lindzeee...i see dat u have been looking up on someone...haha...wow...i REALLY don't know who the person is...haha...okok...will stop it...aiyo...finally...hours of tv has managed to make me feel much better after today's experience...my sis just gave me a pile of work to do...sian diaoz...
[Jay Rawks`]
at 8:42 AM
i wanna cry liao
i tink i can say goodbye to that letter
they were just out to eat me
and guess wat
they tell me that i m more cut out to be an occupational therapist than a doctor
so in essence they were trying to tell me that i have succeeded in convincing them that i am not cut out to be a doctor
they picked on every single thing i said
sad...
[Jay Rawks`]
at 1:35 AM
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
tmr is THE day
did some last minute shopping at novena square
but couldn't find anything suitable
haiz
dun care already lar
just go in whatever i deem to be suitable
was on the line with oiying yesterday night
we had a good talk!!!
we were talking about our class, her boss, our teachers...
goodness...i couldn't believe i was laughing so loud into the phone
she also gave me this crash course on how to look more feminine
1) "never walk with your head down. keep it up ok? and walk slowly, your back straight up..."
2) "sit with your legs crossed and sit up straight..."
3) "when you speak, leave out all those big hand actions of yours"-i must say i m really guilty of that
4) "appear confident even if you don't feel confident...just look confident..."
haha...i must say i really need time to learn all these man...haiz...to put it in a nice way...i m down-to-earth lar...to put it in a blunt way...i just dun have class or elegance...but then again...i feel comfortable the way i am...hmmm...so maybe i will have to take a longer time to learn Oiying's Four Rules of Femininity =)
hehe...i m back at ttsh today =)) gee..so happyz!!!!
the attachment at G was honestly...kind of boring lar...
but there were some hilarious moments though...haha...
Gynae:
I was at Dr L 's clinic that afternoon
my fren was late
so Dr L started talking to me first
L : you know...if u are in medical school...u tend to marry another doctor...because ur social circle will be so small as a result of having to study for such long hours
me: yar..i understand...a lot of people tell me that
then...without warning... Dr L looked at me very seriously and asked
L: Do you have a boyfriend?
me: er...no...
L: why? can't find the right one ar?
me: (this kind of question how to answer???) erm...well...i guess u can say that...
felt kind of embarrassed...no boyfriend =(( any way...she sort of changed topic after that...
den my fren came
and Dr L chatted with both of us
all of a sudden, without warning
she shot the question again
L : Do you have a boyfriend?
my fren: erm....no....
L: why? can't find the right one?
my fren: er...yah...
my fren looked quite embarrassed too...didn't know wat to say....
after a while, she started seeing patients and didn't really have time to talk to us
but when she has no patients...
there she goes again...
L: Why you all dun have boyfriends? Really no boyfriends in junior college ar?
us: *argghhhhhh...stop it*
me: er...yar...i really don't have
my friend: yeah...dun have as well
L: how come? can't find the right one issit? got people go after u all right?
ARRRGHHHHHHHH....STOP IT!!!!
fine...nobody wants me okay????
are u satisfied?
goodness...never seen a doctor who keeps asking this kind of questions one...
surgeon:
my fren and i were like these two toods huddling at a corner of the operating theatre when Dr T finally saw us
T: so this is the cartilage and the bones
us: uh-huh...yeah...
half-way into the op..Dr T suddenly changed topic...
T: (to the anaesthetist) eh...u r a female doctor...u r in a better position to advise these girls on a career in medicine leh...
anaesthetist: oh...first and foremost...get a good husband...dun tink so much lar..got good one quickly "choup" lar...
T: yeah...agree with her...let met teach u some tricks...choosing a husband is like choosing a university...if got good ones...u must quickly apply to them first...den once u get accepted...u can start to make a choice...
gosh...
they didn't really sound like they were joking
m i too idealistic when it comes to this kind of thing?
i believe in fate
you might meet a "good" guy
but the guy might not be "good" for you
alright...i tink i sound incoherent...but i guess u know what i mean
so it's just like u may marry a guy whom u tink is "good" in many ways
smart, good-looking, rich, capable...
but u just dun feel happy being with him
so i guess it's when the two can click
den the relationship will be truly enjoyable
dunno why suddenly tot of so many things...
[Jay Rawks`]
at 4:03 AM
Sunday, May 01, 2005
sometimes words can't describe how i feel
you seem to know everything about me
my fears and my worries
with you i feel that there's nothing to hide
nothing to worry about
we look very happy together
if not for that photo you showed me
i would have forgotten
what it means to be happy
what it feels like to laugh out loud
what the meaning of friendship is
and what day will that be when we meet again...
[Jay Rawks`]
at 9:01 PM
so all along it has been a turn off
i should have guessed dat
dun tok to me about confidence
i dun want to hear that
[Jay Rawks`]
at 8:46 PM
i am blogging like almost every day
which is not a very good sign...haha...it means i m really bored
how am i supposed to prepare for the interview?
been asking seniors about this
i dun want to sound like i memorised answers
i also dun want to sound like i haven't thought about a career in medicine
maybe like wat my sis says
just go there and be yourself
my mum says if it's yours,
it's yours.
maybe some things in life are really fated.
i went shopping today
i just have no idea wat to wear for the interview
a check with my friends confirmed the same view
it seems like everyone is fussing over what to wear on that day
jeans? "definitely no! it's too informal..."
heels? "erm...ok...but make sure ur shoes are covered ones hor..."
jacket? "er...pls lar...u will look overdressed!"
the last thing i wanna do is to blow my chance by looking too informal
but i dun wanna look overdressed too!!
i heard from shunwei some of her friends are going for facial
some said they wanna look pale and skinny so that they will look like doctors
goodness
wat's next?
i was supposed to shop for smart casual wear
but in the end
haiz
ended up buying all the casual stuff
it was good time shopping with my mum though
haha...i needed her because she has the purchasing power
she looked so lost in orchard
every once in a while she would ask me
"are we going in the right direction? is this is right way?"
there was once we came to this section in isetan which sells all the teenage stuff
and she said "oh...so this is the kids' section yar?"
haha...my mum is so cute!!!
i spotted like three people today who were wearing the same top as i did
this does not include the girl who wore exactly the same top and jeans i wore on sunday when we took the written test
gosh
i better stop wearing it man
especially when two out of the three of them were at least twice my age
just hope that things will turn out fine on THE day...
[Jay Rawks`]
at 2:31 AM
