Saturday, May 21, 2005
sometimes
i quite envy anny and ky
lovey dovey pair
even though they might feel the whole world is against them
they know they still have each other
in the romantic sense
and of course
i have seen break ups
that were sometimes as quick as how they got together
and i think of what i have been through
together?
i don't think so
we were never together
i used to console myself by saying that maybe he needs more time
but i guess that's just wallowing in self-pity
he probably never liked me
and he said all those...
i don't know...
just to please me?
so that if he changes his mind...he still has one spare tyre?
now i am scared
i don't dare to go into this kind of things anymore
but i don't want to keep waiting and miss the boat...
i don't want to be shadowed by that experience
though i know i am already in it
i am so confused
[Jay Rawks`]
at 4:35 AM
